emptymilkbottle

2005-02-10T22:06:00.000-08:00

boooo.my new blogg's been created.its squashiemoshie.blogspot.com.yepp.juz go look look kayy??

2005-01-27T19:27:00.000-08:00

hiiii.sorrie.its supp to be squashedorangejuice.blogspot.com.teehee.

2005-01-23T10:35:00.000-08:00

heyy ppl.will be changing my blogname to squashedorangjuice.blogspot.com.

yepp.my angel name.hahas.

will try to change it by this week.

yepp.so see ya around.

2005-01-21T15:56:00.000-08:00

boohoo.i am still sick.but much better compared to yesterday.so i haf been sick since wed.till now.this is the damn 3rd day.i guess i will fully recover during the weekend.heckk.lotsa ppl are getting sick nowadays.cause of the weather conditions.catching a cold lyk me at this point of time.common.

anyways.i haf thot it thru and haf decided to put all the unhappiness behind.no point bearing a grudge over it.its all over.so over.so why even bother??hahas.glad dapy is feeling somewad fine too.smiles.

ohh rite.nic accompanied me to sick bay yesterdae.shes sick too larhs anyways.and its lyk i started to feel kinda weak after cme.dunno why.yepp.so at the sick bay we rested and slept for a teeny weeny bit.that place kinda scary.the deans are dhere.and its lyk ohh mann.so we tried to keep our voices as low as possible while toking.and fiy.we din mean to pon art lorhs.anyways my dad even allowed me to go home after lunch break.but i stayed larhs.cuz of nic nic jie.shes lyk "eh...you cannot liddat lorhs.i am oso sick.and very tired wad.eh...you cannot liddat larhs".as if i want to.come on.i need sleep.sleep.and more sleep.hahas.wadeverr.heckk.i cant be bothered.

hmmm.so some of the fiver juniors are quite nice.kinda sweet.i am closer to some of them.kristie.hilary.nicole.siyu.yea.bout 4 of dem.awaes hanging out wif dem during recess.anyways who can i go recess wif other than them and liping??no one wad.as in i am not close to most of my klassmates.yea.i wud lyk to use the word klassmate.dhere is practically nothing i can tok to them bout.heckk.i dun realli care.and some of my close fwens hafta eat wif cca bunch.so well.anyways.the 4 juniors are quite nice larhs.i am closer to them as compared to some of my klassmates.hahas.pathetic sia.hahas.wadeverr larhs.

and to be frank.i dun realli wanna go back mbs.as in for wad??dhere is practically no one to tok to.and the teachers are awaes surrounded by my ex-klassmates.moreover i haf nothing to say to them except "hi".so well.not much point rite??to go back dhere.and heard dhere will be a 6k klass gathering at end of this year.for those who do not wish that i noe.relax mann.i wun be going lorhs.its stupid.to turn up and realise that less then 1/4 of the klass turn up.aint it??hahas.wad a united klass.hahas.how sarcastic.wadeverr.

anyways.the juniors are going back lorhs.so i guess i will go back too larhs.juz to hang around and wait for them to go home too.hahas.ohh yea.tink i will arrange for a day to go out wif the juniors.hahas.some of them.hahas.rite.doubt they will wanna to go out wif me.hahas.wadeverr.

rahh.

2005-01-18T07:49:00.000-08:00

a mixed up cocktail.

thats me.thats how i feel.i dunno how i feel.rahh.i feel somewad crying.but this tiny part of me is so happy that i could not bring myself to cry.godd.save me.save me from this confusion.save me.

my bez fwen's sad.so am i.

flunked the damn geog quiz.thankfully uncounted.cuz i din realli study for it.i din noe till today.

getting mood swings.rahh.emotional me.

lost mutual trust in most of my fwens.in the midst of not being so insecure bout my fwens.

trying to gain some pathetic self confidence.mission impossible.

slacking too much.rahh.awaes liddat.damn.

never accomplished wad i aim to do.i am a freaking sore loser.

broke.

rahh.i am sad.sad.sad.

my juniors are nice.most.

my bez fwens are nice.most.

thats all.

am i happy?

hope so.

sometimes the actions of ppl are so weird it realli leads me to nowhere in life.sometimes they act lyk they can be your fwen to hang out wif and stuff.sometimes they realli piss you off lyk nothing.rahh.i dun wanna blow off anymore.control.self discpline.where are you?

to dap hh.my bez fwen foreva:

a teenager's life is awaes so full of ups and downs.dheres practically nothing you can do to stop.avoid.but one can awaes try to forgive and forget.fwens.sometimes i realli feel lyk bashing some of dem up.no lie.but its lyk you tink of it this way.why bother?its no big deal.i wud rather haf one more fwen than one more enemy.homework.yea.sec2.seniors already.so wad to expect?but more and mroe homework.its alrite dapy.i haf got lotsa homework too.juz try to finsih dem.as much as possible.at least you give in your bez rite?and if you need any help.sms me or aniting.i will lend you my notes or something.other problems.tell me.muz tell me.i will help.dats for sure.smile more. :)))

luv
huiqi

2005-01-14T21:41:00.000-08:00

i realised that sock and joyce are the faithful ones who came to my pathetic blog.esp sock.hahas.wadeverr.thanks sock.for the "condolences".hahas.

realli.i look around.tink hard.i dun haf that many close fwens after all.lets count together.dapy.1.yunny.2.liping.3.sockk.4.nic nic jie.5.thats bout all.5 fwens.and i dun haf many fwens whom i will haf aniting to sae to.so well.wadeverr.

i realli wanna trust you nice ppl out dhere.i realli do.but i juz dunno how.i simply juz cant get over it.it has been affecting me since.its lyk that time i saw her mom.her mom was lyk holding her freaking head high.and din even cast us a damn glance when my mom greeted her.and to those who noe me.i am not those who take things down too easily.i din even bother to greet her mom.its lyk well.thats wad you did when i lost out to your smartass daughter wad.so now why cant i do it back??when will your competitive family learn that studies is not everything?!!i wud rather haf more fwens.wadeverr.

all thanks to you mann.you made me lose total trust in all my fwens.no matter how nice they are.i juz dun feel secure.you shaped me to be a fucking asshole wif no fwens.thanks for that.howdo you wanna me to repay such kindness and generosity of yours??

rahh.i am a scewed up sore loser.

ohh rite.by the way.this song was once dedicated to me by daphh.i luvv it.till now.but the words are so not applicable in my life.wad i will rmb the memories we had toghether.hahas.lyk i will??lyk any of the 6k ppl will??my foot.who cares bout that klass now??less than 1/4 of the klass turned up.and i seriously do not tink this is called klass spirit noe us having a sense of belonging.i tok to none of dem.none.except ruiqi.occasionally sharon and joyce.and of cuz daphh and yunny.thats all.i haf practically nothing to sae to them.i no longer feel the urge to return to the skool where all my painful memories are stored.i dun want them.i dun want them back.

2005-01-13T05:53:00.000-08:00

long time no blog.not realli very free recently.first and foremost i slack.i slack a lot.i slack.sighs.so nowadays instead of goin to skool wif meiting whos awaes late.i go wif yanghan.this damn nice.damn chio junior.hahas.shes a grat fwen mann.hahas.and shes on the contrary of meiting.shes early!!i dun even hafta wait for her instead its the opp way round!!hahas.isnt that juz fab??hmmm.the fiver juniors are quite sweet and cute.lyk hilary and kristie.my mbs juniors.kristie is my direct junior for 2 years le huh??i tink.not too sure.maybe 3??hahas.and nicole.and of cuz yanghan larhs.hilary and nicole most lykly taking modern dance.then kristie most lykly netball.but i hope she can take squash.but well.no point forcing.hahas.then yanghan.shes considering between theatre and squash.and then its lyk we were trying to persuade her.but realli the final decision lies in her.hahas.how philosophical.i hope she can take squash doh.hahas.then at elast i will haf someone to take the train back wif.hahas.nah larhs.not all cuz of that.but shes realli the active hyper type.sporty.yea.exactly.better than me.i feel so pess.hahas.wadeva.

so i cant realli catch up wif my skool work.its lyk wow wow wow.i am indeed suffocating under the pressure of homework and untrusted fwens.the problem dun lie in dem.no.but me.freaky nerdy spastic me.its lyk ever since after the incident wif my pri skool "bez fwen".i dun trust anyone anymore.no one.no way.esp klassmates.its lyk i wud realli sure lyk to share wadeva i haf wif dem.lyk notes or wadeva.but the thing is that i am afraid that after "taking advantage" of me.they wud jus leave me in the corner.lamenting.crying.lyk how i used to be.its lyk that particular person heck me after she got to noe which tutor i go to.and stuff liddat.then she went to suck up to the smartest gal in klass.its lyk wadda fuck.i wud very gladly use the word fuck on her.its lyk i cant stand ppl lyk that.then when i look around at my klassmates.i am realli scared that they wud challenge me to another competitive fight.which i am totally sick and tired of.that pri skool "fwen" had already driven me up the wall.i realli cud not take on another fight after slogging lyk mad for 6 whole years in pri skool.moreover.i am no longer who i am.so wad for??i dun realli care that much afterall.all i need is a trustworthy fwen.and i noe i haf got 1.only 1.i confide in her.she listens.she consoles me.she is somewad lyk my pillar of strength.

i dunno.its lyk recently in skool.dhere happens a lot of situations whereby i knew i wud definitely flare up and get damn pissed wif her.if it was last year.but its totally diff this year.i haf vowed not to be so petty.but i cant stand it at times.so i juz shuddup.and hope time passes for the next break.its not that i dun wanna share my notes wif you.i wud most willingly do so.but looking at your char.and your response to not getting around my score or better than me made me realli realli afraid.i dun want another unwanted fight you noe wad i mean.doh i trat you as one of my close fwens.but its lyk the past incident has been affecting me so much i feel realli insecure.i do not noe if i shud trust you not.or wad you haf said is juz a pack of lies.i realli dunno.its lyk i was so naive in those fwe years i believed those lies.all of her filthy lies.i realli dunno wad to do.feel lyk i am such a sore loser.such a fucking bastard.when it comes to things lyk this.i juz can build the mutal trust.i juz cant.i am a sore loser.i am a fucking bastard.

the fucking bastard signs off.
hoping to gain enlightenment.

2005-01-06T21:15:00.000-08:00

so four days haf passed.and tomolo is the last day of the first week of skool.woohoo!!!hahas.wadeva.ohh yea.i dinally got my squash shoes today.its the asme as woonlue's.except it is of a different colour.hers is whote and blue.and mines black and orange.so i dun need to wash it too often.hahas.spoilt slacker.anyways i am intending to get either hammer130 or hyperhammer130 or hammer145.i dunno.shall see how.hahas.anyways.i am very lousy at squash.sighs.hahas.but i will try my very bez to improve larhs.hahas.wad a positive attitude.

yea.i dun realli lyk the teachersappointed this year.as in not they are meanies or wad.but they are BORING.lets see.

el : hengkie --> hengkie bad
maths : jason ingham --> ng wai foon [temporary] bad
science : lee shan shan --> lye ai fern neutral
chinese : liu yong feng --> tay soo eng neutral
history : wong tze yung --> john mackintosh hopefully good
geography : lim chow hoon --> shirley png bad
literature : pauline chan --> hengkie bad
it : damine yam --> mark shone hopefully good

sighs.dhere are lyk 4 bads, 2 neutrals and 2 hopefully guds.so its lyk urgh!!!wad do you tink??

anyways.i picked this mortal today.siling.heard liping says shes quite nice and cute.but the thing is first day and i broke her fragile heart.liping told her that her angel, that is me, will pass her her letter during lunch.but i din.cuz i din finsh my deco and stuff.and i heard shes quite upset when she cud not find her letter among the piles and piles of letters her classmates received.sighs.i am such a big bad boogie senior.sighs.sorrie.siling.

ohh yea.and esther tan gave birth to a baby gal on 20dec.ohh mann.those who noe me well enuff will noe wad i hafta say.

2005-01-03T05:41:00.000-08:00

so skool's not as bad as i thot.ohh well.at least the E.T alien is not teaching me any longer.hahas.i am so damn happy!!!congrats huiqi!!!hahas.crap.anyways we got a new form teacher from sarawak, kuching.heard of dat place doh.in malaysia i tink.not sure.heckk.so i got tay soo eng.hmmm.shes got this malaysian accent.lyk one of those accountants my mum used to haf.quite strong accent.anyways.she stepped into klass and give us these 3 phrases.which i dun realli noe.so i was lyk huh??hahas.

almost all of my teachers change.all except for one.heng keng luan.mann.dat means i haf to see her EVERYDAY!!!rahhh.cuz shes in charge of squash you see.and guess wad??shes teaching me lang arts too!!not dat i doubt her ability.but i cant bear to see my eardrums go poof.hahas.not dat serious.but sighs.

so i got my seat.rite behind liping and shiqi.rigth next to evelyn tan and sebrina.right in front of qiyan and miaoran.right next to nicola.the hamster.hahas.and may claims dat i am her owner.hahas.maymay of cuz i wun dare to be the only one sharing nicola you see.i haf to share her wif many other fwens of hers who are interested in this cute lil hamster here.and probabaly i will only get bout 1/10 of her??hahas.dat wud be definitely so farnie!!!hahas.rite nicola??can you imagine 9 owners flocking after you or go round searching for a hmaster missing in action??hahas.i wud most likely luff my head off.hahas.dun be petty and get pissed kaz nic??hahas.its juz an open joke.and well.a compliment too.hahas.

seriously.hope i wun slack so damn much lyk last year.hahas.cant afford it.rahhh.going bonkers.wads wrong wif me??saying such stuff??about mugging??hahas.no way.well maybe juz a teeny wheeny bit.hahas.makes no difference.

2005-01-01T14:13:00.000-08:00

skools reopening..

in juz 1 day..

yet i am not ready..

absolutely not..

my soul yearning for freedom..

for peace..

for joy..

for mutual trust between each other..

for everything possible..

in this stressful place..

that makes up for hell..

but face it..

its juz one day..

and everything you once had..

will be gone..

forever longg..

not coming back to you..

anyways.i wanna thank those ppl..

who haf stepped into my shrivelled world..

who haf made an impact on my miserable life..

who haf showed me wad true fwenship is..

daphne..

yunjing..

ruiqi..

sharon..

sockkeng..

nicola..

kewei..

serene..

zhiying..

devon..

liping..

other squashers..

thanks a whole lot..

you guys haf been truly great..

despite the ups and downs..

thanks a whole lot..

ohh gawd!!!!

i hate skool!!!!!

i hate skool!!!!

rising hatred..

rahhhh!!!

2004-12-30T19:13:00.000-08:00

juz got home.wad a great day i had.hmmm.first part not realli.hahas.anyways.so my mum called me at 6.30 in the early morning to wake me up for my physical training in skool today.sighs.i woke up at first.then i went back to sleep again.hahas.lazy lazy me.then my dad called.at 7.how nice of him to do so.and then i dozed off again.wif my clock clutched in my hands.so i opened my sleepy eyes to check the time now and then until 7.15.hahas.then i realise that if i dun hurry.i will be late for training.hahas.and guessed wad??i went straight to bathe without brushing my teeth!!!i bet i haf damn bad breath today.but my fwens din say.dun wanna hurt my feelings??hahas.dunno.heck.gonna use lots and lots of listerine today.hahas.lame.but i guess i will do so.hahas.

ohh yea.so on the way to lil india.i almost puked and passed out.hahas.its lyk over at boon keng mrt dhere my vision became damn blurry.then its lyk blacking out.hahas.so i held on to the hand bar.and dhere is lyk this lump in my throat.but i noe i wun puke cuz i din take aniting for breakfast.hahas.i dun lyk breakfasts.i prefer brunch.hahas.

after training.went uot wif dapy.we cudnt find each other at the city hall platform.hahas.cuz shes one level below e.so its lyk argh!!!!!where the hall are you?!!hahas.so we went to the control station.and i took the stairs up.was freaked out.damn high can.i got great phobia for heights.hahas.but wad to do??so i kept whining and whining and dapy said she almost screamed at me.hahas.eardrums bursting.hahas.anyways.we went to a few places many times.hahas.
heres how our jouney looks lyk:
citylink --> plaza sing --> heeren --> far east --> lido --> orchard popular --> raffles city --> citylink
ohh god.its damn hectic lorhs.hahas.but its definitely fun.ohh and i ate over at citylink at delifrance.the potato gratin is damn nica can.but ex larhs.hahas.dapy says she on diet.dun wanna eat.so sit dhere chew chewing gum.hahas.but thats my lunch wad.then we each bought a slurpy at seven eleven near the somerset mrt.that sucks.my slurpee overflowed and its lyk all the coke came spilling onto me.i was lyk yikes.hahas.dapy's too.but she not so clumsy.hahas.then went lido in hope of cheesy hotdogs.they are damn nice can.hahas.but the people say they dun sell them anymore.i was lyk wadda hell!!!we queued up sooo long and this is wad you tell us.heck.so we bought cookies.and it sucks.not nice one.but dapy says its nice.well at least saying something lyk "the chocolate melts in my mouth and i haf never eaten chocolates liddat before they all very hard one" is a gud sign larhs huh.hahas.so we went popular.dapy went to get notebooks.part of her "skool supplies".hahas.anyways.i juz sat down dhere lyk a piggy glutton.and munch on the cookie.while dapy kept throwing notebooks down at me.hmmm.a loyal dog waiting on her servant.ohh god.so that means i am a bitch.hahas.i am a bitch.ohh who cares.but its quite insulting larhs.wadeva.and guess wad??we din buy aniting dhere.well at least dapy din.hahas.ohh yea.i met adele!!!hahas.shes getting some stuff for her sis.i tink.sighs.shes sick.get well soon!!!hmmm.so we went back to citylink.but dapy says she wanna go rafflescity to check it out.and then we bought nothing from dhere.so we went citylink.so she finally got her bag.
heres her rules for choosng a bag:
[1] no weird colour combinations
[2] no dull/ striking colours
[3] unique designs -- not common
[4] no old fashioned designs--those available long ago
[5] strap of great length
[6] no hood
[7] no guyish colours -- gray, blue...
[8] no weird structures
hahas.complicated rite??hahas.she says she wanna go open a shop whereby she is the desinger of all the bags.hahas.she says that dhere are no cne bags she can buy.hahas.so next time look out for "daffy duck's masterworks"??hahas.i am sooo mean to such a great fwen.hmmm.but maybe its something lyk that larhs.so maybe she shud design one specially for me and no one in this world has it except for me!!!hahas.wishful thinking.but realli.who noes??hahas.

and guess wad??dapy bought her "skool supplies" all from city link!!!so we haf made a great round huh??hahas.i told her.maybe dapy.i shud say that i shall meet you back at citylink??hahas.but she will definitely need such a great advisor along the way??hahas.but my legs are aching!!!hahas.after training and all the walking.wad bout some comfy leg massages from you??hahas.bet shes going to pich me lyk nothing.cuz she juz slapped me today!!!hahas.

7.watch tv.

2004-12-26T16:27:00.000-08:00

wheee.at my cousin's house now.hmmm can also say its my ex-house.hahas.used to stay dhere.its damn cool can.hahas.the mrt station is lyk within walknig distance.not that my current house is not.but well.hahas.anyways its boon keng mrt.so its lyk in the middle of the purple line.north east line.so its nearer to little inda.dhoby ghuat.and outram park as compared to kovan.so its more convenient when i go to skool.orchard.or come home from squash.sighs.plus there are squash courts.badminton courts.bball courts.soccer fields.not that i play soccer.but the facilities around is so definitely better than those aruond my house.or actually dhere is practically only the superbowl.which is almost lyk no big deal cuz i dun realli bowl.cuz i cant bowl.and those facilities are lyk sooo near??juz opposite!!and dhere is even a balcony outside me lil cousin's room!!!wadda.i dun even haf one alrite.but they dun haf the roof level.lyk my house.but the roof level is not realli necessary anyways.hmmm.heard the terrace next to theirs is on sale doh.hope my parents wud buy it.but they claimed they are broke.yea i noe.my family is a bunch of paupers!!!hahas.dunno.

shit is.so it seems that i am fated not to born wif such luxuries.

2004-12-25T13:27:00.000-08:00

hohoho~!!merry xmas~!!hahas.hmmm.wrote xmas testimonials for my bestest fwens.yunny and dapy.i wrote almost the same thing but the end of it is diff.cuz they are almost two diff people.leading two diff lives.hahas.how philosophical.well not realli.hmmm.received quite a few xmas msg.how nice of my fwens.hmmm.they are all my ex-klassmates.so this year they are promoted to being my fwens.ohh crap.this is so nonsensical.

ohh great.so i am spending my xmas at home.well not realli.i juz went tm to get the sims expansion packs.hahas.and yea.new skool shoes.yay!!cuz the new skool socks are being altered so it kinda looks lyk ankle socks after almost every klass suggested this as part of how the skool can improve.hahas.then for these socks.if you were to wear low-cut shoes lyk my current ones.then you will still see the stupid nygh.so muz wear high-cut ones.hahas.doubt you understand wad i am toking bout.cuz it doesnt make much sense.hahas.

hmmm.was giving shunjie this idea for commonwealth essay.bout how he can go bout toking bout jasmine.and its because her parents dun spend enuff time wif her.and so she tries to attract attention from her fwens by bawling her head off.doing weird stuff.sucking up.and stuff liddat.by the way.that s the qn bout how you admire this person and you are going bout convincing others to like her too.however i dun see wad one can admire bout jasmine.hahas.i am a mean lil witch.

but who cares.its xmas today!!hahas.

2004-12-24T23:30:00.000-08:00

arghh!!!!i feel so much lyk exploding!!!!hahas.so by typing this down.my anger has somewad resided??hahas.its true.but i noe you wun believe me.hmmm.so mebbe i shud scratch the plan bout giving up this blog.hahas.

hmmm.so went out wif dapy and yunny yesterday.hahas.to where??snow city.so went dhere happily.tinking dat it wud be realli fun.lyk the other timw we went bowling.hahas.then in the end.we were 10 min late.you noe only 10 min late.and wads the great punishment?!!we haf to wait for the 12.45pm entry.god.its lyk we reached dhere at bout 11.25am.so we gotta wait for this long!!!!!!hmmm.so actually i was tinking of goin to sci centre.then yunny say very boring.so din go.thenwe waited and waited.and when we went into the zerozone.or sth liddat.its a total letdown.then we entered to get our boots and jackets.and its more dissapointment.the stuff were sooo stinky.yikes.then we went into the snow.and dapy was freezing.cuz shes wearing shorts.then she kept pulling it down.hahas.thats farnie.doh i din luff right in her face.that wud be lyk sooo mean.hahas.hmmm.but i did mention it here.so well.wadeva.hmmm.we actually wanted to slide down the snow.but dapy said we will freeze to death cuz we are wearing bottoms above kneelength.hmmm.maybe except me.cuz my bermz was lyk so loose.its hanging slightly below my hips.hahas.and it feels lyk its dropping off!!hahas.anyways.the place is lyk so damn cold.we aer still freezing under our jackets.hahas.then dapy the worst one.as in freezing.so in the end we went out halfway.hahas.hmmm.but i brought a huge piece of ice along wif me.hahas.then we were at the bus stop.yunny stole my block of ice.then play play play.the ice melted realli fast.then she who had magical powers said that she wants to share it wif me.hmph.no way.you were luffing at me first darling.so why shud i??hahas.but who noes juz then she broke the piece of ice into 2.then she gave the smaller piece to dapy!!!who wants it.so in the end.the person who smuggled it out.din get anything!!!how unfair!!!hahas.nothing is practically fair in this world if you take a closer look at this crude society.anyways.yunny din lyk the feeling of iced water trickling down her.she gave it back to me.hmph.then dapy and i threw the ice at the fence over at this private property.hahas.then the people at the bus stop all staring at us.i was lyk.who cares.hahas.

we went for klass gathering.well not exactly.10 pathetic min??hmmm.not so.we were late.cuz we dunno how to walk to the beach.so we took taxi.and meanwhile.this stupid insect shitted on me.or sth.or its the dead insect itself.i dunno.but its this damn gross thing.i was so freaked out.eeek.so i poured the whole bottle of water on my berms and my finger.and i was lyk.wadda heck.why so lucky one??anyways.dapy and i reached mcdonalds.the meeting poin late.hmmm.so we combed the whole beach in search of the "klass".and obviously we took the wrong turn.but we saw the guys along the way.but we decided to dao dem.heck dem.and we were determined to find them ourselves.not bothered to ask dem.so after sooo much walking.we finally saw ruiqi.ailin.yanting.and xinyi who came up later.then ailin was saying ruiyong was scolding us.dapy and me.then yanting was i take you guys to the place to put your bags.and my dear fwen ruiqi was lyk ohh sorrie.i forgot to brong your present.i gelt lyk killing her.hahas.no larhs.she says she will pass it to me when skool reopens.so dats ok i guess.hahas.nah larhs.jk.so i was so damn freaked out and shocked when we saw only a few bags lying around.so where are the rest of dem?!!as in the klass.guess wad?!!most of the klass din turn up!!i was lyk shit it.shudnt haf made my appearance.cuz it felt realli awkward.cuz i am not the lest bit close to dem.i seldom tok to dem last year.so wad more now??then the guys came back.ruiyong looked kinda unhappy.guorui was lyk saying we were so dao.i noe we are.but wadda heck do you expect us to do??un up to the guys and strike up a conversation??no way.and plus we were happily listening to our discman.so even if you guys were to tok to us.we wun be able to hear it.cuz we were blasting the music.then afterwards.we sneaked away.when all of dem went off roller-blading.but we told ruiqi beforehand larhs.cuz if not not very nice.so we went to eat our magic dust.hahas.and i made a mess outta myself wif the dust and sand all on me.i was lyk eeek.hahas.anyways.even if i wanna join dem i cant.cuz i cant roller-blade.i cant bike.i cant swim.cuz long time din do those stuff.so very stiff le.damn.wad a loser i am.boo!!!ohh yea.and i prepared a stack of xmas cards.but dhere was no one to give.shud i leave dem toll next year??or shud i throw dem away??hmmm.dunno.

ohh yea.my presents.yunny gave me this perlin's silver star bracelet which i thot was an anklet.stupid me.its so damn nice.ohh and a lil doggy toothbrush holder.hahas.and dapy gave me this damn cute barking dog.and its golden retriever!!yay!!hahas.hmmm.and my ex-klassmates gave me presents too.and i was so freaked out.cuz i told dem not to go to the expense.cuz i am not even klose to dem.ohh yea.anyways.they are wif ruiqi or whoever i tink.so yea.and i noe ruiqi owe me one.hahas.and hmmm.who else??none.ohh yea.my mum.hahas.

yawn.ohh and xmas is coming!!in lyk half and hour!!hahas.hohoho.merry xmas!!

2004-12-21T10:45:00.000-08:00

great.so bdae's all over in a poof.sighs.hahas.hmmm.and i woke up damn late today.shit it.hahas.but i am sick wad.hahas.lame excuse.

special thanks to those ppl who sent me bdae smses.yunny.zann.dapy.doh its belated.hahas.lester.and ex classmates. and doh i lost the bet.but i am still realli realli happy.hahas.and those who came to tag.yunny.bernice.gwen.sock.those who wished me happy bdae at my tagboard.yunny.sock.and those who said happy bdae to me online.but dats cuz my nick was happee burfdae to myself.but anyways.thanks.minyu.caleb.jiaming.this senior.i tink is ivan.not sure.sorrie.hahas.ohh.and bdae testimonials.dats only for yunny larhs.ohh.and i juz realised onli 1 person from my klass in skool wished me happy bdae.sighs.hahas.but beta than none larhs.hahas.thx everybody!!

so lets see.wad i am gonna do today??

1. algebra worksheet #1

2. algebra worksheet #2

3. commonwealth essay -- betty ann

4. chi essay

5. tidy up my room

and lastly.wish me luck in finishing them!!argh!!

2004-12-20T23:55:00.000-08:00

phew.juz got back home.bout 11.hmmm.so yea.we went to escape.yea.first time dhere.yea i noe.damn suaku.but so wad??but before that.we dropeed by at my cousins' auntie's house.hmmm.met shawn dhere.shawn's my cousin's cousin.my fwen larhs.in other words.hmmm.so at first everything is damn freakingly awkward.cuz its lyk i am juz lyk an outsider dhere.sighs.den i felt so left out.so i thot my bdae is goin to turn into a disaster.

over at theme park.i initiated to tok to shawn.so of cuz things got beta.and its lyk there is no longer this invisible divider between us.we used to be quite gud fwens when young.singing abc and other baby songs together though we are p2!!hahas.dats realli a great time.

so yea tok bout the rides.we took the one nearest to the entrance.and its lyk wow.scray.its lyk spinning and turning.felt as doh i am falling off any moment.hahas.then we went to alpha8.its quite cool.wif the effects.hahas.but the ride was erm.thrilling.i screamed.but no words came out.finally experienced this huh.after regurgitating this phrase in compos after compos.hahas.hmmm.din take this one wif huiqing.my cousin.she backed out alst min.so i took it wif shawn.then we went to the kite.god.this one sucks.its lyk so slow.and so i began to feel nauseous.eew.but i still went for the rainbow.and so.retribution.after that.my legs were so wobbly.i couldnt walk down the stairs properly.then i took orange juice.and i knew at once.i will puke for sure.uh huh.yet i went for the viking.hahas.this time.its great retribution.i finally puked.and huiqing almost cried.hahas.i din hope for that to happen doh.so for the rest of the time at them park.i kept puking and i didnt take part actively in the rest of the activities.but i forced myself to take one more ride wif dem so as not to be such a damn wet blanket.hahas.ohh.then shawn and huiqing went to play the games.and shawn gave me the small purple monkey she won.i hung it above the com.hahas.thanks shawn!!thats my first bdae presenf.hahas.hmmm.

so we went for dinner.totally not in the appetite to eat.hahas.so i juz slept at the table.hahas.while the rest of them ate.urgh!!sucks.hmmm.so i puked lyk 4 times.sighs.and i am feeling damn nauseous now.shit it.i shud be sleeping but heck.noti noti me.ooo.break record todae.i onli ate instant cup noodles to survive the whole day.hahas.hmmm.not exactly.i ate a lil bit of rice and porridge.but i puked both out.so not counted.hahas.

hmmm.shall go to sleep now.i gonna puke again.hahas.hmmm.so in juz 5 min.my bdae will be over.OVER.

2004-12-20T12:00:00.000-08:00

happee burfdae to myself!!lame.pathetic.miserable.hmmm.so i was reading the princess diaries.third time lucky.when i received a bdae sms from yunny.exactly at 12.so dat makes it exactly 12 hours ago.hahas.sooo sweet of her.but i din send her one.boo.cuz i dun awaes stay up dat late.hahas.yunny.i am normal.hahas.hmmm.so we had quite a gud time smsing.chatting.den i dozed off.hmmm.oh yea.i made a bet wif her dat less dan 3 ppl wud send me a bdae sms.cuz i am anti-social.i dun haf dat many fwens who wud rmb my darn bdae.hahas.but at least i noe yunny and dapy wud.hahas.

hmmm.so i recieved a bdae sms from my ex-classmate todae.uh-huh.den i went online,then i changed my nick to happee burfdae to myself.hahas.stupid thing to do i noe.and its lyk as doh i am trying to hog the limelite.but dats exactly how i feel.i am saying happy bdae to myself cuz no one is saying to me.alrite.onli a miserable few.hahas.

and then i finshed half of my chi essay.hahas.so i am going for tuition later.sighs.i awaes feel so awkward down dhere.lyk so lonely.juz lyk how i awaes feel in skool.hahas.saddist.alrite.then in the evening i am going out wif the cousins i mentioned yesterday.to either escape or wild wild wet.hmmm.hope it will be fun.hahas.

ohh yea.damn it.i still dunno if dat wadeva klass gathering is still on not.darn.i asked yanting.ex-monitress bout it.she gave me an answer.and i jolly well forgot.shit it.sighs.beta go confirm wif her again.sighs.

2004-12-19T18:28:00.000-08:00

hmmm.feeling much beta now.but i am still feeling a bit worried.dunno why.maybe i truly care if dat teacher wanna teach me afterall.hmmm.shes quite a gud chi teacher and her notes are very concise and useful.

but well.i realli dunno.i am feeling all so mixed up.i dunno.happy.exited.yeat at the same time.worried.sad.anxious.scared.lonely.

now.my cousin and i are listening to the diary of alicia keys.song no two.karma.indeed.wad goes around comes around.wad goes up muz come down.true.

hmmm.

2004-12-19T16:10:00.000-08:00

great.so my cousins are at my house.hmmm.the two whom i mentioned about.the sisters.the elder one in my pri skool.yea.and this young one is realli hyper.hmmm.got trouble trying to control her.and not messing up my room.i juz tidied it yesterday for gods sake!!sighs.

anyways.got damn pissed off with my mum.juz cuz the stupid chi tutor saes she wants to transfer me to another teacher.afraid dat she cant teach me all so well.then my chi deprove.then she will feel guilty.its lyk ohh come on.go straight to the point.you dun want to teach me den so be it larhs.its not even her first time saying dat.so who cares??i dun even haf the interest in chi anymore.so forget it.then my mum was lyk giving me dat bloody face.wadeva larhs.lyk i am scared of you.for gods sake.i am NOT.then she scream her head off at me bout the whole thing.ohh come on.if you dun want your bloody head.den chop it off.its lyk i realli wanna give her a tight slap.and rip her face off.her sight totally irks me nowadays.i cant stand her anymore.den she says she wanna complain to my dad.then i noe sure die one.she says if i dun want her to tell my dad.i haf to mug.i was lyk wadeva.fine larhs.but i noe i sure die one.but i noe one thing.i will neva go back to my old self.NEVER.i am no longer who i am.ohh come on.mum.use your puny brain to tink.tink.tink.i realli hope my fucking mum wud get her ass outta my personal problems!!juz scram mum.get lost!!argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

screwed.i am realli screwed!!not in the mood to blog anymore.fuming.i gonna explode!!i noe wad.i am not gonna tok to my mom unless necessary to avoid all these damn arguments.i am sooi sick and tired of it!!argh!!!!!!!!!!!

oh great.and tomolo's my bdae.and i am in such a foul mood.darn.

2004-12-18T10:57:00.000-08:00

darn.woke up real late.9+.shit it.sighs.den had a tuff time trying to brush my teth clean.cuz i put on braces.so its lyk more difficult.hmmm.so i took bout 15min juz to brush my teeth??its sooo long for gods sake.and my pronunciation sucks.sucks.sucks.now.not dat it doesnt suck in the past.but its even worse now.sighs.decided to skip breakfast.in case my grandpa drags me out for lunch.and i still haf got lotsa work not done.all piled up.sighs.

hmmm.but my grandpa is nice larhs.he gives me money.hahas.not realli cuz of dat.hes fair.unlyk my grandma.she prefers the guys.and dhere is onli one miserable guy in the whole family who will be able to carry on the family tree.hahas.toking bout my cousins.we are realli split up.divisions.i dun tok to bout lyk 5 of dem??cuz its lyk i am not close to dem.and i haf got practically nothing to say.so why make myself an idiot??hahas.usually i will hang round wif either this tp cousin.cuz hes quite nice.and erm.can show me some nice sites for games.or my lil cousin in mbs.my alma mata.and her even more lil sis.hahas.

ohh.went to yiting's blog juz now.i lyk the rdaio.blog.cool.nice.but dunno how to get it.hmmm.hahas.i will try next time.cuz i tried clicking "i want my radio.blog" but nothing happens.wad a loser am i.hahas.

beta get goin to do my homework.ohh rite.i am still not sure if dheres a meeting for om todae.cuz i tink we are realli kinda far behind.but i guess its alrite.slow and steady wins the race.lame excuse.and stupid nicola hasnt returned my call.to tell her to tink of ideas for the om.i haf got one.but the idea is lyk in bits and pieces.actually.i sorta compiled all their ideas together.so hope its not too weird.hahas.will try to get the bits and pieces together and form an idea which flows smoothly later.sighs.

P.S 2 more days to my quiet bdae.hahas.

2004-12-17T19:21:00.000-08:00

ohh well.decided to create a blog and start venting my anger and cursing and swearing.hahas.evil evil me.hmmm.is kinda into harry potter recently.once again.cuz its lyk the vcds i haf at home is damn limited.so i kept rewatching the harry potter vcds.and tada.i got hooked.well.but its nice.i am not childish.but even adults are watching harry potter or reading wad.so i dun tink it shud be termed as childish.its not onli for kiddos.hmmm.maybe i am.cuz i am still a kiddo.but an old kiddo.cuz i am not even 13 yet.but in a few days.yea.to be specific.its 3 days.nopes.2 and a half.yea.hmmm.no prezzies for me most likely.cuz its lyk i dun haf many fwens.anit-social me.hahas.hmmm.nopes.not exactly.i noe i can count on my bestest fwens.yunny and dapy on dat doh.can i??so dat makes it 2.a miserable 2.who else interested in giving me prezzies for my bdae??hahas.juz jk.no one asks for bdae prezzies.its stupid.and nic will most probably luff her head off and sae,"aiya.huiqi you are so thick skin!!"hahas.actaully i miss her.and all the other klassmates.sighs.but i lyk the hols too.

hmmm.anyways.i haf to make a plan for myself to mug a lil.so at least when skool reopens.nic wun make me feel lyk a complete fool.cuz i bet wif her dat i will slog damn hard during the hols.and guess wad.i haf not even finished my hol homework.not to say extra practices.hahas.hmmm.so i if i slog dat lil i may be able to salvage things.and not pay so much.or burn a hole in my pocket.i am broke nicola.i seriously am.sighs.ohh yea.i tink i am halfway thru for everything.so dat doesnt sound too bad.my algebra worksheets.i scribbled on the foolscap paper.its damn messy.so i guess i haf to rewrite.sighs.ohh.and my commonwealth essay.i exceeded the 700 word limit.it went up to 800+.oopss.sighs.sighs.sighs.beta catch up before xmas.

a miracle struck todae!!i ran 1.6km in 9.56 min.hahas.well maybe to those pro athletes lyk nic.this is a damn lousy record.but heyy.i tink its pretty gud.considering dat i am one of the slowest runners in klass last time.i ran 12.56 min i tink.so yea.improvement.oopss.by the way.i took 2 breaks in between.so maybe add a min to it.hmmm.so its 10.56 min.yea.not bad larhs.improvement is beta dan none or deprovement.hahas.

gawd.getting hungry.alrite.i beta go pig out now.hahas.maybe when skool reopens you will see the bloated version of me!!hahas.i will neva let it happen larhs.i shall maintain my weight.in case nic says i am too fat.hahas.

heyy.i can crap a lot.cant i??looking at it.hahas.but i totally freak when it comes to lit.i suck at lit.hahas.i neva lyk lit.and guess wad??we are using to kill a mockingbird and emily of emerald hill.doubt dey are nice.hahas.beta start reading.maybe i wud fall asleep after reading the first page.hahas.